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Test

  • Lets Try Again

    Ok. I think i’ve got the hang of this now. I think.

    It’s getting there slowly. Hopefully, this will be the last test and I’ll have to start writing something!

  • First Test

    Ok, this is the first test post. Hopefully I won’t have to do this too often,

    Me


Personal

  • Why am I doing this?

    I’m a nobody. I guess we all are at some point in our lives. Maybe. Or maybe it’s just me.

    I’m on all the usual social media sites under a different username. Got a few acquaintances and people that could be called friends following me.

    So why have I hit the reset button? Started from scratch. Where nobody will read...

  • A day in my life

    3 am Little G wakes me up to go out.

    6 am My alarm goes off.

    6:10 am my alarm goes off.

    6:20 am my alarm goes off.

    6:30 am my alarm goes off.

    7-8 am I try and survive the morning cat feed, preparing my lunch, getting breakfast. And make a half hearted attempt to be ready and at...

  • I don't like Mondays

    It’s that feeling of “here we go again” We’re at the top of the rollercoaster. Just bracing for the sudden stomach-churning descent. Which is great if you like the exhilaration of the ride. I’ve always hated rollercoasters. Never been on one. Never wanted to. Never will. Rollercoasters are like life. I never asked to be on the damn thing. But...

  • The testing is over

    Well. Here I go. A blog about my thoughts and ideas. I don’t have many thoughts. Or ideas. I feel like I just float through life being buffeted by whatever comes my way.

    I remember being asked by the careers counselor at school what I wanted to be in life. I didn’t have a clue. I was a suicidal 15...


caturday


running

  • When You're An Introvert At The Gym

    What a difference 48 hours can make..After my previous visit to the gym went horribly badly, friday did a complete 180 and restored faith in myself.

    “No one can make you feel inferior without your consent.” – Eleanor Roosevelt

    I wasn’t going to let the gym win. It wasn’t going to take the enjoyment out...

  • Running...

    Feeling the runner’s high low

    I should be happy. But I felt like a fraud. I felt out of place at the gym. I felt like I didn’t belong. It’s nobody’s fault except my own. Nobody shamed me. Looked down on me. Ridiculed me. I did that to myself.

    I saw myself in the mirror...

  • 8 Things I wish I knew before I started running

    I still consider myself new to running. I started about a year ago. Then injured my knee and been slowly getting back into it.

    As with all things I threw myself into it 110%. Running every other day, Not exercising

    8 The Things I Wish I Knew


    1. Slow and Steady
    2. There’s Nothing...
  • Keep on running

    Week 3 - Run 1


    This is not getting any easier. I didn't think it would. I'd hoped. Trying to follow c25k is not easy when you only run once a week. Motivation is the killer. I am completely lacking in it. I _want _to do it. But this invisible forcefield keeps holding me...


c25k

  • 8 Things I wish I knew before I started running

    I still consider myself new to running. I started about a year ago. Then injured my knee and been slowly getting back into it.

    As with all things I threw myself into it 110%. Running every other day, Not exercising

    8 The Things I Wish I Knew


    1. Slow and Steady
    2. There’s Nothing...
  • Are We Nearly There Yet?

    Week 3 is finally finished. I say week 3, but it must be more like 9 weeks as I’m only getting one run a week in. Which isn’t ideal. Motivation is just at rock bottom.

    I’m a member of my local gym thanks to the discounted rate to join through my physio. I just have to...

  • Keep on running

    Week 3 - Run 1


    This is not getting any easier. I didn't think it would. I'd hoped. Trying to follow c25k is not easy when you only run once a week. Motivation is the killer. I am completely lacking in it. I _want _to do it. But this invisible forcefield keeps holding me...


designs

  • It's Lead Work Wednesday #1

    The kind of work I love and hate. The customer wants birds, butterflies and flowers. And leaves the design up to me. I love getting free reign on designs. But the idea of it ALL being left up to me? including colours? Not so much.

    A few tweaks and layout changes to the design.


quotes

  • Pale Blue Dot

    hand holding a globe

    “Look again at that dot. That’s here. That’s home. That’s us. On it everyone you love, everyone you know, everyone you ever heard of, every human being who ever was, lived out their lives. The aggregate of our joy and suffering, thousands of confident religions, ideologies,...

  • Quote of the Day

    The older I get, the more this sentence resonates with me. I don’t know if I’m just getting more cynical, jaded. If I’m just surrounded by such people that their negativity is rubbing off on me. If it’s world politics, events, or the pandemic. I just know there’s an overwhelming aura of despair that blankets my...


depression

  • Are We Nearly There Yet?

    Week 3 is finally finished. I say week 3, but it must be more like 9 weeks as I’m only getting one run a week in. Which isn’t ideal. Motivation is just at rock bottom.

    I’m a member of my local gym thanks to the discounted rate to join through my physio. I just have to...

  • Sharing a Post

    Hi I’m Blue, and I struggle with mental illness.

    Some of you will dismiss me, some of you will be scared of me, some of you will blame me, but a surprising amount of you will understand me, because 1 in 4 people experience mental health issues.

    Read more here on...

  • Quote of the Day

    The older I get, the more this sentence resonates with me. I don’t know if I’m just getting more cynical, jaded. If I’m just surrounded by such people that their negativity is rubbing off on me. If it’s world politics, events, or the pandemic. I just know there’s an overwhelming aura of despair that blankets my...


demotivation


personal

  • Death Of A Pet

    The Day

    So here we are again.

    The difficult decision of when is the right time has been made.

    The hour has been booked at the vets.

    The appointment at the pet crematorium has been made.

    And now the final day is here.

    We try and make the long hours until 5pm as happy as possible. Trying to bottle...

  • Small Talk Is Largely Hell

    Words Don’t Come Easy To Me

    I’ve been a quiet person my entire life.

    I have had moments, usually after alcohol was involved that my mouth wouldn’t stop moving.

    But chatterbox moments would be short lived. They would give me a headache and feel a bit dizzy.

    And that’s not just down to the alcohol consumption.

    Quiet, shy, reserved,...

  • I've Tried Nothing And I'm All Out Of Ideas

    It’s been a month. Already? I know! Time flies when you’re having fun.

    The number of Pinterest pins claiming to double your page views. Help you start making \(\) in as revenue. Become Master of the Universe in 3 easy steps is ridiculous.

    I never expected to make a penny from blogging. And so far my...

  • 20 Things I'd Tell 20 Year Old Me

    Turning 50, and then very quickly turning 51 has got me thinking of what I’d tell my younger self if I could go back in time. For the longest time, I’d say things like “no regrets” or “you only live once”

    Looking back now I realise that was bullshit.

    I have a ton of regrets and wishing I’d looked before...


cakes

  • Cake Tuesday

    Cracking Cake Gromit

    My mum always has been a fan of Wallace and Gromit. More of a Gromit fan to be honest. Designing a cake around her favourite characters made Zara’s life so much easier when coming up with birthday cake ideas.

    I think Zara could have made a W&G cake every year and my...

  • Cake Tuesday

    My late father always loved the cakes Zara made. The ideas she came up with. The little things she got in the designs. The accuracy of the details. I think this was one of his favourites. Anything that involved his beloved rats always went down well.

    He always sat in his favourite chair. With a cup of...

  • Cake Tuesday

    Going back further in time for this one. The first-ever Cake Tuesday. Not the first celebration cake. But the first one I decided to share with the world.

    It’s my birthday cake from FIFTEEN YEARS AGO!! That can’t be right. When I was THIRTY SIX. Oh god I feel so old!

    Anyway, here’s...

  • Discworld Cake Tuesday

    Since the age of 16 when a college friend thrust a well read book into my hand and told me to read it saying

    “You’ve got to read this. Death is in it, and he turns up with cocktail sticks”

    I’ve been hooked on the late great Terry Pratchett’s Discworld. The obsession has wained slightly over the...

  • Cake Tuesday

    Many moons ago. In the dark and distant past. I had a blogger blog. An, if not successful, then maybe a slightly popular one.

    And then for some reason. I got bored with it. And left it gathering dust.

    Until now.

    Where for some reason blogging has sparked a small fire inside me.

    My girlfriend has...


cake-tuesday

  • Cake Tuesday

    Going back further in time for this one. The first-ever Cake Tuesday. Not the first celebration cake. But the first one I decided to share with the world.

    It’s my birthday cake from FIFTEEN YEARS AGO!! That can’t be right. When I was THIRTY SIX. Oh god I feel so old!

    Anyway, here’s...


mental-health

  • Death, Depression and Me

    Death, Depression and Me

    “Every man has his secret sorrows which the world knows not; and often times we call a man cold when he is only sad.”
    Henry Wadsworth Longfellow

    By the time I’d met my now wife I’d experienced twelve deaths. Losing family and friends has gone a long way to shaping me into the...

  • Why You're Feeling Unmotivated

    I tried to start this post whilst laid in bed. But the usual distraction got in the way.

    Twitter

    Pinterest

    Instagram

    And between them and staring out the window I didn’t get very far.

    I had all these intentions the night before. I was going to do some clothes washing, tidy the house, hoover, fix things, clean things. Motivated, motivated,...

  • Keeping Life In Focus - Without Losing Interest

    Keeping Focus

    I can feel it happening. It’s not like the bubble bursting. More like, it’s deflating.

    I’ve gone from going flat out, foot to the floor. Pedal to the metal. Well, you get the idea.

    The latest shiny new thing in my life is starting to dull. I don’t know how it starts. What triggers it off.

    But...


grief

  • Death Of A Pet

    The Day

    So here we are again.

    The difficult decision of when is the right time has been made.

    The hour has been booked at the vets.

    The appointment at the pet crematorium has been made.

    And now the final day is here.

    We try and make the long hours until 5pm as happy as possible. Trying to bottle...


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